January, 2023

What I Am Noticing

At the end of each year, I read through my journal looking for themes, musings, some sort of growth or progress, and general entertainment.

As I was setting up my digital journal for next year, I titled the journal; "Bring It!"

As I finished typing the words, the thought "wow, Indira, you really want to tempt the universe like that?!" came in shrouded in fear. Then the questions flooded in. What if I could create whatever I want? What do I want? Do I know what I want? If I don't know, does that have meaning?

I've watched all sorts of people in my line of work launch themselves in new creative ways with a clear direction where they want to go. I have no idea where I am going and even less of an idea of where I want to go. All I know is what I enjoy doing from one moment to the next. Every year prior to this one, I have tried very hard to change this aspect of myself. This year I am going to find out what happens when I accept this part of me.

Where We Are Headed Collectively

Some aspect of the reason why I don't know where I am going is because I haven't been there yet. This applies to the collective. We are all being asked to choose the high road. That place of responsibility within ourselves where no one is to blame including our selves. It's time to fully own what we enjoy doing and being. And it is no one else's responsibility but our own to be fully in our lives in a way that is honoring of ourselves, even when we don't know what we want.